I haven’t posted anything in almost a month! I had this crazy idea in my head at the beginning of April that I might actually start posting regularly. That didn’t work out as well as expected. I’m a gratingly irregular poster. All other manner of habits I have are quite regular so don’t be worried if you were wondering.

This month has been trying me. April and I just don’t seem to get on very well. Maybe May will be better, but I doubt it because she’s prone to crying way too much. I need a masculine month with some vim and vigor. A month that knows how to treat a lady (or an overweight chubby beary queen). Anyway the worst part of April was the fight I had with my Grandmother. I’m often worried if moving back to help her really has helped anything. I gave up quite a few things when I left Texas. I haven’t really gotten any of that back. The absolute worst thing about Arkansas is the smell. Actually it only smells in a few places, but I happen to live near them. Really the worst thing is the lack of diversity. There are gay people here, but I’m a unique individual and not everyone can appreciate someone with my many fine qualities. So it seems even the gay community is not diverse enough. One of the hardest parts about leaving Texas was that I actually found someone that was mildly interested in me.

Ok so pity party over. I need to suck up (he he I said suck) and move on. Even though I don’t have any gay friends here, and my chance of meeting a possible mate is exponentially slim, I still feel pretty good about myself. I’ve been thinking lately that I need to treat my Grandmother better. Even though I gave up a lot doesn’t really give me an excuse to give her half-ass care. She gives me a lot to deal with. I will find a way… or I won’t.