I think today is going to be a slow day for me. I don’t really have many obligations today. I’m planning on knitting and playing World of Warcraft. Around noon I will be taking my Grandmother to Springdale to have lunch with her brother for his birthday. I’m the only young person invited because I’ll be driving my grandmother. That fact bothers me a little. I kind of seem to be the odd man out most of the time. I did move back to Arkansas to help my Grandmother, but it feels like we’re a couple that does nothing but fight.

I’ve been trying to think of ways to get out more. Or at least to go to where the gays are. I don’t like rejection and I’m kind of afraid of the “gay” scene here. It’s a small town and I feel it will just be pretty boys looking for other pretty boys, and latent homosexuals looking for sex with other men. Neither of those two really fit into what I want out of a friend or a relationship.