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Ok so Sunday has been my only good day this week (assuming the week started on Monday). I spent some wonderful quality time with my mother. I visited my LYS (local yarn shop). Went and had sushi with some friends from the LYS. Lastly I’m heading off to bed early.

I think I feel good about today because I am hoping that during the coming week I will receive some good news at work. I’d like anyone who reads this to cross their fingers for me.

I went to see WallE tonight. I enjoyed the movie, but it was loaded with “messages” that in my opinion are mainly aimed at adults. Anyone who is planning on seeing the movie should stop reading this post unless they like spoilers. So in the movie Earth has been filled up with trash from a culture completed centered around consumerism. They don’t say it specifically, but the world seems like it’s controlled by a CEO rather than an elected official. The company comes out with a robot that’s supposed to tidy up by compacting all of the trash into nice little cubes. While the robots are cleaning most people go on “space” cruises. There are giant ships that are small planets unto themselves. People end up staying away for 700 years. The movie is built around how they get back.

The movie touched on consumerism, conservancy, peoples growing dependence on technology, lethargy, and love. Love is what made the movie good. I have to say too there was a part where I almost cried. It seemed to have some kind of sway over my emotions.

I hope that I got what I did out of the movie because I like to think and reflect. I also hope that it’s because I have an open mind. I guess there is the possibility that all that thinking, reflecting, and openness could help make me a better person. We’ll see.

Actually there isn’t anything I don’t know that I don’t know. I had an interview last week. I think it went well, but I’ve been thinking about it constantly. I really really hope I get the position. I need a change at work. I think that I’m going to have to put some knitting on hold soon and start learning about computers. I do want to increase my technical skills, but knitting is so much more relaxing. We’ll have to see. This is a short post so I can feel good about posting. I need that.

but this video is…

I’ve been thinking lately that I need to bring a little bit of the openness of New York to the closed world of Northwest Arkansas. I really don’t know how far I’d get with it, or even if I really have the “balls” to do it. I watch a lot of DIY videos on YouTube and lately they have pointed me toward fashion designers/performance artists in New York. It has basically gotten the gears going in my head. If I haven’t made some attempt at it in the next couple of months I think it’s going to fade out.

Today is Sunday and in about 6 days I have 5 friends coming up from Dallas just to see me. I’m ecstatic, but terrified at the same time. I don’t think they expect NWA to be a big party town. I am worried though that I’ll be nervous and clam up causing my hosting ability (if I have any) to go into some bizarre sort of shock. I’m still looking forward to it though.

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Actually I’m having quite a sleepy Monday. I have gout and it’s been acting up for the past week. It’s been more of an annoyance than disabling pain. I’ve been taking some arthritis strength Tylenol and I’ve been surprised that it’s been helping. I called in today though so I could go to the doctor. Since I’m running on my time I decided to sleep until 10. As soon as I post this I’m going to jump in the car and go. I don’t think it will take very long at the doctor’s office. After that I’m going to call my Aunt and plan our evening. We had planned to go see Kung Fu Panda today. Since it’s in the bones that I’m not working today I thought I’d try and squeeze in a lunch for the two of us. We’ll see.

So most weekends I find myself out of the house for most of it. During the past few weeks I’ve been going to my local yarn shop (LYS) and knitting all day long. I really wish there was more to do here. I guess I really should be the kind of person to make where ever I am at enjoyable, but I just can’t seem to find that sweet spot. I do enjoy going to the LYS though. I’m a regular and I have many good friends there. I joke around with everyone, but I think I might be getting on some peoples nerves. You see I’m the only guy in the shop and my mind wanders to a few topics that many of the women are offended by, but simply don’t have any interest in. Elizabeth the owner is great to talk to. Just about everyone there helps me keep things in perspective… to a certain extent.

Recently though I’ve gotten a message on Ravelry that was pretty uplifting and just made me feel good. I got it on a Friday night and it has just made my Saturday pretty darn good.

For the past week or so I’ve been developing a loose plan to make some changes in my life. We’ll see how it turns out.

I haven’t posted anything in almost a month! I had this crazy idea in my head at the beginning of April that I might actually start posting regularly. That didn’t work out as well as expected. I’m a gratingly irregular poster. All other manner of habits I have are quite regular so don’t be worried if you were wondering.

This month has been trying me. April and I just don’t seem to get on very well. Maybe May will be better, but I doubt it because she’s prone to crying way too much. I need a masculine month with some vim and vigor. A month that knows how to treat a lady (or an overweight chubby beary queen). Anyway the worst part of April was the fight I had with my Grandmother. I’m often worried if moving back to help her really has helped anything. I gave up quite a few things when I left Texas. I haven’t really gotten any of that back. The absolute worst thing about Arkansas is the smell. Actually it only smells in a few places, but I happen to live near them. Really the worst thing is the lack of diversity. There are gay people here, but I’m a unique individual and not everyone can appreciate someone with my many fine qualities. So it seems even the gay community is not diverse enough. One of the hardest parts about leaving Texas was that I actually found someone that was mildly interested in me.

Ok so pity party over. I need to suck up (he he I said suck) and move on. Even though I don’t have any gay friends here, and my chance of meeting a possible mate is exponentially slim, I still feel pretty good about myself. I’ve been thinking lately that I need to treat my Grandmother better. Even though I gave up a lot doesn’t really give me an excuse to give her half-ass care. She gives me a lot to deal with. I will find a way… or I won’t.

I’ve briefly planted myself in one of the break rooms at work. It’s not very busy at the moment. If you didn’t know better you’d expect it to be busier with 2,500 people in the building. Most of those slothful little bees though are salaried. If they happen on the need for a break they simply take one where ever they may be. The hourly ants have to remove themselves to break areas lest others think they are on the clock not working.

Being forced to witness things like this keep my bitterness tied to my back where I can’t reach.

P.S. This is an older post I found and I kinda liked it so I thought I’d go ahead and publish it. It is very short however.